“Those Changes Are A Coming”

I am writing this blog tonight as I/we continue moving into our third act of life. We have been empty nesters for over a year now and have been making plans for our future. In case you don’t know, I am a planner. I love to have goals and make plans. Here’s an alert for you so you don’t get surprised. I am going to be sharing my feelings as I write as I am one of ‘those people’ 🙂 

 At this point, you might stop and say, not really interested in all that touchy feely stuff and that’s okay. Not everyone is. So, if you are that kind of a person, tonight’s  blog may not be for you. For those of you who really connect with how you feel about things and even act on how you feel about something, then this will be of interest to you. I am sharing because, I believe, we all have that sixth sense that guides us through life and I hold my sixth sense in high esteem as it guides me daily.  

I am one of ‘those people’ who rely on my instincts and those instincts usually propel me in the right direction. When I don’t rely or act on them I usually end up spiraling.  Which is what I did this past week. When I say spiraling, I mean that I feel more scattered and everything feels more like work. 

When this weekend arrived, I found myself sitting  ‘on a few different patios’.  As I sat, I gained a new perspective on life…..and, on other peoples’ lives. 

The “changes that are a coming” are making me feel very excited and also very anxious. This is a new one for me. You see, I LOVE change! I see change as an adventure, a challenge, and a gift of new experiences. I don’t usually have the anxious feeling that I have at this moment with all these changes. I usually try to make the best of every situation and that’s how the new experiences arrive and the adventures blow in, and the arrival of fresh new beginnings come into my life. 

I spent today thinking about the rough week I’d had last week. And, even though we kept moving forward I was still uptight. I was feeling anxious and wondering if I/we were making the right decisions. 

And, after this weekend, you know what, I realized that we are. Even though we are making the right decisions, I couldn’t help but feel that something was bothering me.  

As I move forward, as we move forward,  I will be leaving the past behind me. Leaving the past behind felt very sad to me. You see, I identify as ‘the wind beneath the wings’ person, just like my Mom was. The support person who spent her time helping others, caring for others, and mostly loving others through challenging times, good times, and toward success. I love this role because I feel like I can provide the best support to people who need it and it helps them. And, I feel like I have done something to help make someone’s life a little easier. While I am like my Mother in that sense, she was amazing at it. I, on the other hand, am not quite there yet but I truly believe I learned a lot from her❤️. 

I have come to realize while ‘sitting on the other patios’ this weekend that the change I seek is  coming quickly and easily and its coming so easily because I am no longer really needed very much anymore in the lives of those I supported. Mostly everyone is gently moving forward in their own directions, their own lives, their own first, second, or third acts of life.  The family members, the friends, the people I have impacted and the people that I have had to take a stand for…. All gone and/or moving forward in their journeys. Time goes on and that’s a good thing. My role was not one of permanence and I knew that. 

I see life as a bridge from one journey to the next…probably why I love bridges so much and I used to walk across the bridge of life looking in many different directions as I walked, seeing a need, and readily being there to help. The need is not as strong anymore and so we focus on our changes more easily. 

While I was mulling things over last week I was struck with this realization.  That I no longer hold a huge role with any of those people and because those doors are closing, in a good way, and my job is done for the most part, I can now officially move forward leaving the past in the past and walk the steps of my present and my future without having to juggle it all. And, for that, I am so very excited albeit is something very unfamiliar to me. 

And, that is why I was reluctant this past week, I am embarking on a new role and had to consciously discover that now is the time to be ‘the wind beneath my own wings’. It’s my turn to do the flying. 

I hope that if you find yourself  ‘a little stuck’ on a direction to go that you will give it some thought and trust your instincts on what is right for you. I hope you will choose to always move forward even if you feel ‘a little anxious’ and that you too will recognize when it is time for you to fly. 

Have a blessed week! 

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