I am sitting on my patio because that’s all I can do today. I have decided to take this time to really enjoy each moment, change the things I can, and focus on those I love.
I hear and see the geese and the hawks flying up above. The birds are enjoying our bird bath and the food cakes we have set out for them. They don’t seem to have a care or worry about them. They know how to just ‘be’.
Occasionally, from across the street, I will hear Bo whinney. He is one of the highlights of our neighborhood and the lessons I receive from Bo are many. The biggest one is patience. Another one is seek the moment and what it has to offer. And, it is that lesson of patience and seeking the moment that I am embracing today.
The wind is blowing through the trees knocking down some of the leaves as it moves through. It’s a windy day here in the country. And, it’s definitely one to enjoy.
I think this lesson is being provided for me to remind me that I can’t control everything…and I have to ask myself, why would I want to? On my patio today, I am reminded that asking for help is okay. Bo asks for help all the time. He is an old horse with a huge personality. Just now, a neighbor stopped his truck and got out and gave Bo some food. Many neighbors stop with food for him. Not that he needs it because he is well fed and taken care of by his ‘Mom’ Mary. This morning, a teenager walked up slowly seemingly without purpose, sat down right next to the pasture and spent time with Bo for a good 20 minutes or so. When he got up, he had more of a bounce in his step. It was a great encounter to witness.
We are all given lessons in life and we have to choose to accept the lesson and let it guide and educate us so we can become stronger and more courageous. I am trying to do just that today.
Within a month or two I will finally have ‘a new normal’, living like most other people do, being able to go back to work and inserting myself back into a full life. I am so looking forward to that. It’s been a very long and eventful 3 1/2 years.
But, there is a lesson in my here and now that I need first and I don’t want to miss. A lesson to stop trying to be so perfect and stop trying to take care of everything and everyone. Because if I listen to this lesson, I will be able to enjoy much more the wonderful people in my tribe, my inner circle and, really just the random people I meet each day. Many of them are so interesting.
Well, I am certainly my mother’s daughter wanting to take care of everything and everybody😊. Only, she WAS able to take care of everything and everybody or she appeared to anyway. She could make everyone feel good after spending time with her. So many people cherished their time with her.
Some days, when I think about it, I wish she had heeded the lessons that hit her. The lessons to slow down and take care of herself. The lesson to stop, relax, and enjoy the moment. Mom did that with the babies. She slowed down. It was if time stood still when she had them. They were the only thing that could get her to just ‘be’. She had this incredible connection to them and caring for them was something she was really good at.
I still miss my Mom a lot. How could I not? She was one of my best friends. We would give each other advice, talk about our days and weeks, guide each other through life, and talked about our plans for the present and the future. . She really did live life to the fullest and at the end slid into Heaven with all kinds of physical evidence that she grabbed all life had to offer.
And, very soon, that’s who I want to become…..Wonder Woman❤️but, for now, I will enjoy this ‘side’ of life and it’s lessons.
“Life should NOT be a journey to the grave with the intention of arriving safely in an attractive and well preserved body, but rather to skid in sideways, chocolate in one hand, champagne in the other, body thoroughly used up, totally worn out and screaming WOO HOO what a ride!” ~Hunter S. Thompson~
And, that is how my Mom did it. And, maybe, just maybe, that was her lesson. To spend as much time as she could enjoying people especially babies. That is a successful life.